Forgiveness
Further thoughts on abuse by the medical cartel...
I’ve long prided myself in writing about things most writers won’t touch. Usually that has meant “conspiracy theories”, like bankers ruling the world, or an unholy alliance between gov, big tech, media and the intelligence community, or covid as a social control mechanism. Or magic. But lately, looking around my society, seeing the division, seeing how much rage there is, I’m pretty sure the most controversial idea out there right now is forgiveness.
I wrote about the importance of forgiveness recently, in my post about the Octagon Society, Order of Spiritual Alchemy. Then I followed that up with a post about the top 24 covid conspirators, and a reckoning. There seems a disconnect there that needs resolving. How can I talk about forgiveness, and then talk about taking proverbial/metaphorical heads?
One name I left off that list of malefactors is Dr. Peter Hotez.
Peter Jay Hotez (born May 5, 1958) is an American scientist, pediatrician, and advocate in the fields of global health, vaccinology, and neglected tropical disease control. He serves as founding dean of the National School of Tropical Medicine, Professor of Pediatrics and Molecular Virology & Microbiology at Baylor College of Medicine, where he is also Director of the Texas Children's Hospital Center for Vaccine Development and Texas Children's Hospital Endowed Chair in Tropical Pediatrics, and University Professor of Biology at Baylor College of Medicine.[1][2]
How could I leave out Hotez? I suppose that has mostly to do with the fact I cannot take that little bulldog very seriously, and I sort of forget he exists. But he was a major player in covid authoritarianism, even rabid about it, and a media darling for all his furious flying spittle. Dr Hotez, aside from being a prominent covid enforcer, there is hardly a greater vaccine fanatic in America, in a higher perch; Hotez’s mortal enemy he believes, are the anti-vaxxers. Hotez has claimed something like $100 million dollars from the Gates Foundation and Fauci/Collins at NIH etc over the years, to create a vaxx for parasites and especially hookworm - to zero effect. Dr Peter Hotez exemplifies everything pernicious not just about covid authoritarianism, but about the epic gaslighting that is mocking parents who believe their autistic child was a normal kid until they started on the 94 vaxx-routine demanded of children, by the medical cartel in America.
Who am I to talk about forgiveness in the context of that?
This is from the Law of Forgiveness training in spiritual alchemy:
For most people, this is the most difficult step in the entire work of inner alchemy. This step is made more difficult than it has to be by common misunderstandings about forgiveness. To forgive a wrong does not mean that you are supposed to forget that it happened. It does not mean that you are supposed to treat the person as though the wrong never took place. It does not mean that you are supposed to let yourself be subjected to the same wrong, or some other wrong, all over again.
To forgive means simply to let go of the anger and resentment you’ve stored up inside yourself because of the wrong that was done to you. It means to let go of the burdens that anger and resentment loads on your body, mind, and spirit. It means to recognize that what happened to you belongs in the past, and you can lay down the burden and go on to make a different future for yourself.
In the context of Dr Peter Hotez and forgiveness, one might start with compassion, as difficult as that might seem - Peter Hotez in his vaxx rabidity does not seem worthy. But Peter Hotez has a profoundly autistic daughter, who cannot take care of herself and is prone to violent outbursts. I worked for two years as a maintenance man, for a small company that maintained housing for similar people with autism. I have friends who similarly cannot find alternative housing for their child with autism, because he is so violent. Imagine living with that, day after day, year after year. I would not wish such a fate on the worst among us. (Hotez had the gall to name the book he wrote about her, “Vaccines Did Not Cause Rachel's Autism”.)
There is no shortage of evidence that vaccines can cause autism.
Which would seem to make it unforgivable, that Dr. Peter Hotez is such a vicious man toward anyone who questions vaccine protocols. Such is over-wrought ambition, that it can make one so mean-spirited and so blind. Dr Peter Hotez has condemned himself with his hate, anger and resentment. What condition is his soul in, in his refusal to make any connection with his self-righteous vaccine zealotry and his daughter with autism (or his research dollar parasitism, spending a hundred million dollars on a fruitless search for a parasite vaxx?)
The point of forgiveness is not to offer forgiveness to a man like Dr. Peter Hotez, but to release yourself from hatred toward him, or whomever has harmed you more directly. Forgiving him does not absolve Dr Hotez, for his past, current or future perniciousness. Forgiving the likes of Dr Hotez is about releasing pent up resentment and anger that is debilitating you, leaving you free to act with greater clarity. Dr Hotez has power over me if I hate him, if I resent him, if I expend a lot of energy imagining vengeance. What satisfaction would such vengeance bring? It will not reduce my hate or resentment, in fact it is more like to make it worse.
Dr Peter Hotez need not ever know I forgive him (but not his actions.)
Forgiving similarly is not about walking away from the fight. Forgiving does not absolve me from fighting for justice. Forgiving is more like allowing the light of justice to shine through, to make me more effective, more logos and less emotion. If you believe in a creator, think of it like being as the blade of God for justice, as opposed to being tied up and constricted in the cobweb-like emotions of hate, resentment and anger.
We have a situation in America, where doctors and nurses were made to abet murder with covid as a pretext. We are not allowed to talk about that, without being called a monster. But it is even worse than that, the FDA has said kids should get a covid vaxx every year for the first 18 years of their life. Fox News Dr Mark Siegel was recently selling the new covid booster as designed to be safe for pregnant women and newborns, even as the morning crew were talking about (without connecting it to the covid jab) how neo-natal and maternal death has skyrocketed since 2021, while fertility has fallen off a cliff. Excess death is climbing still for young people 25-44, many of whom are still subject to covid jab mandates to attend school. Cancer, auto-immune disease, heart disease are all climbing in America. The one thing we are not allowed to connect this to are the covid jabs. How many people in America are debilitated by autism? How many doctors and nurses are enthusiastic about mutilating and sterilizing kids in the name of gender therapy? There are indications data is being suppressed at the state and federal level, to avoid accountability about covid policy. The medical cartel was the third greatest killer in America, before the pandemic. It is very likely the greatest killer in America now.
It does not seem to me, hate, anger and resentment is very effective in doing anything about this state of affairs. Such emotion loosed broadly across the nation would tear the nation apart; like a fire once burning it would burn up a lot more than what was intended. More than anything these emotions are debilitating, if the infighting in the medical freedom community is any example. There seems no shortage of hate and resentment there, and not a lot of effective action, or certainly not enough to make for covid accountability.
I rather imagine such a movement having done the work of forgiveness, free to be like the metaphorical sword of God. I’m not under any illusion this will happen, but a guy can dream. I am content to share these ideas with the few who are my readers.
Another thing about forgiveness, perhaps the most important thing about forgiveness, is to forgive oneself. One of the most common responses to harm is to blame ourselves for not being strong enough, not being able, for not getting out of the way of it, for not stopping the harm. Speaking of pernicious, that is the most pernicious thing about being on the receiving end of harm, how easy it becomes to blame ourselves. That is perhaps exacerbated in America, this land of the individual expected to figure it out for him or herself. In our solitude it is easy to dwell on that harm, making it worse, shaming ourselves as if we deserve it, shaming ourselves feeling helpless to stop it.
And maybe we have done harm to others; or, maybe we are just too hard on ourselves about things that don’t really matter that much.
Forgiveness is like a light in that proverbial darkness.
Speaking of darkness, consider for a moment those in the medical industry, who have accepted the notion that covid jabs saved millions of lives, that no one was harmed by the jabs, that climate change, or gardening or eating pickled vegetables is the cause for increased heart disease or SADS. Do you feel contempt? Now imagine what it would take for such a one to come to a place to forgive themselves for the harm that was and is being done by the medical cartel, specifically but not necessarily about covid? It would take the near total obliteration of one’s identity to begin to come to an honest place about that. Now I would challenge you to feel compassion, for the person if not the actions.
What is the likelihood Dr Peter Hotez will ever admit he was wrong about any of it? Surely even less likely than him creating an effective vaccine for parasites with his next 100 million in grants. It is easy to feel contempt about him, but I ask, what is that contempt doing for you? How does that contempt serve you? Some will make the argument that it is like the fire of motivation, that it drives them, but I would submit, it is just another form of self harm, self limitation. Dr Peter Hotez is not worthy of your contempt. No one who harms you is worthy of that, not worthy of your indignation, not worthy of your resentment. Nor are they worthy of your forgiveness, generally. But you are worthy of your forgiveness, of them and for yourself. You can even hold on to your contempt for the actions of the covidians, while having compassion for them, while forgiving them.
Then came Peter to him, and said, Lord, how oft shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? till seven times? 22Jesus saith unto him, I say not unto thee, Until seven times: but, Until seventy times seven.
Matthew 18:21-22
They put the scourge to him, while they forced him to drag the cross they would nail his hands and feet to. “Forgive them Father for they know not what they do,” was his response. But that belief in the power of forgiveness did not prevent Jesus earlier, from driving the moneychangers from His Father’s house, with a scourge:
And when he had made a scourge of small cords, he drove them all out of the temple, and the sheep, and the oxen; and poured out the changers' money, and overthrew the tables;
What is a scourge?
Forgiveness is not the same as absolution, and it does not prevent you from defending yourself or others.
Śiṣupāla was very abusive to Kṛṣṇa from his very birth. Śiṣupāla’s mother knew that Kṛṣṇa would kill him because of his abusive behavior. She, therefore, begged Kṛṣṇa to forgive him. Kṛṣṇa, in response, promised to forgive Śiṣupāla one hundred times. As Śiṣupāla grew, he abused Kṛṣṇa whenever they met, but Kṛṣṇa remained silent. Śrī Kṛṣṇa forgave Śiśupāla 100 times. Śiśupāla, however, did not know about Kṛṣṇa’s promise to his mother; he misunderstood Kṛṣṇa’s forgiving nature. When Śiṣupāla’s abuses reached 100, Kṛṣṇa warned Śiśupāla, who paid no heed to Kṛṣṇa’s warning, thinking Him to be a weakling. Finally, as he abused Kṛṣṇa for the 101st time, Kṛṣṇa killed him. 1
This despite that Krishna calls forgiveness one of the divine qualities.
Many people conceive of forgiveness as a sign of weakness. In fact, it is a sign of moral and ethical strength, the act of forgiveness making one stronger, more clear, more able to act. 2
The people of Lahiana probably aren’t thinking about forgiveness right now, but they surely will have cause to. They might look to tradition:
What Is Ho’oponopono?
Derived from the Huna (meaning “secret”) tradition based on ancient Hawaiian religious principles,4 ho’oponopono is a prayer-based healing practice from Hawaii that promotes forgiveness. This practice, loosely translated as “to make right, orderly, or correct,” focuses on healing both the self and others, problem solving, and conflict resolution. Used by shamans and other healers in ancient times, this practice was sought by individuals, families, and communities to bring peace and healing.5
The modern version is a lot of New Age narcissism, colonization of tradition, not very fitting for the one abused/had their house burned down without warning to make way for smart 15minute cities out-of-reach economically for the people who used to live there.
It has been awhile since I have heard anyone from the mainstream ask for any kind of covid reconciliation. Ideas about covid reconciliation coming from the mainstream, of course, amounted to “we will admit no real fault, you will beg our forgiveness, take your vaccines idiot.” Why would they ask for reconciliation, or accept it, when they admit no fault? How many abusers ever admit fault? They are not likely ever to admit any fault, and they will consequently be even more abusive next time around. Often, an abuser asking for forgiveness is just a different kind of abuse. There will be little but more abuse coming from those who continue to think covid jabs are safe and effective. The medical industry will not ever admit fault. If you are looking for resolution there, you will surely be frustrated.
Being angry, resentful and full of indignation about that will not bring you any resolution. If that is all we feel, they still have power over us, and they will continue to abuse us. Better to forgive, let go of that, and face our abusers with the calm and cool clarity of one who can no longer be harmed. 3
As a part of my own work with spiritual alchemy, I think I will start from the beginning, and do a piece on each of the steps of the training of the Octagon Society.
Before forgiveness we need justice.
And before justice we need to stop them killing us.
With Dr Hotez you can sense that he's in his own personal hell of sorts staunchly defending vaccines which likely irreparably damaged his daughter. I pity him in a way as I think the death or disfigurement of children is the worst personal Hell a parent can endure. That said the example of Krishna is illustrative: the perpetrator of abuse is emboldened by the forgiveness and becomes even more absuive and full of contempt. Now that it is at a point of mass genocide there needs to be a righting of the karmic balance...